Do you know what it’s like to try on a whole dressing room full of clothes and have nothing fit? Well I do. And it sucks. It’s really hitting me hard. Apparently when you lose 30 lbs it makes no difference and you don’t get to wear smaller clothes. Im freaking out here. I leave for china in FOUR DAYS and I have nothing to wear. I wish I could just throw on whatever and walk around like I didn’t care, but I can’t. Im constantly worried about how people are looking at me and judging me. This is the worst I’ve felt in a long time and I think its cuz I’ve been super busy with work and attempting to buy things for China. I’m really worried that I won’t be able to enjoy it because of my size and the fact that I can’t wear shorts. It’s going to be blazing hot and I’m going to be dying. Ugh I don’t know what to do… :(













